This Thursday, December 6th I had our appointment to see the development of the lining and my progesterone levels. According to our voicemail message, WE ARE GOOD TO GO! Our transfer is next week. Now that we are ready to go my last Lupron injection was on today. Lupron was a pleasant injection, it did not burn, the injection needle was small. I think I actually might miss that injection. However, this now means that tomorrow is my first progesterone oil injection and I AM TERRIFIED. The needle is larger and I am asking my husband to administer the injection. We will see how tomorrow morning goes. Wish us luck!

On November 30th I turned 33. It was a bittersweet moment. Year 32 was incredible!!! I graduated from my master’s program, welcomed my niece, updated our home, working in a location that I love, and presented the National Convention for Speech-Language Convention. Although 32 was memorable, I can’t help but feel empty. Throughout the night, I found myself sitting alone and reflecting on my life thus far. My life has been great, I can’t complain. However, it has been challenging and I have had to overcome adversity. Now I face one of the largest adversities yet. Wishing for the best year yet.

For the past few months, I have been someone I do not even know. I have always been somewhat spontaneous and like to change things around. However, I have been on the extreme end of the scale recently. It started with changing just about all the light fixtures and light bulbs in the house, followed by cleaning out all the closets. Now to the most recent changes have been in the master. We are getting new bedroom furniture and painting the interior walls of the house. Although I have no idea what is going on with me, I can’t help but like the changes that I am seeing. It has been a lot of work for my husband and I, as well as our family members; however, it is going to be worth it in the end. I can’t wait to show you before and after photos of the finished master bedroom and bath. I am obsessed!!!

On Sunday was the start of phase 2! As you can imagine, I was excited, anxious, and dreading for this day to arrive… and it finally did. I have to say I was expecting worse. I was expecting it to burn and hurt, but for it was completely the opposite. Today was day 2 and the only side effect I am feeling is nausea. I am not sure if it is the combination of the birth control and Lupron together or if it is Lupron alone. We will find out soon, Sunday is the last day of me taking the birth control pills. I am sure my husband is happy about that since those things make me crazy.

It is really funny how life works sometimes. My original transfer day was going to be October 22nd. However, due to my doctor going on vacation that day had to be rescheduled. My niece decided to come ten days earlier than her due date, coming into this world on October 22nd.

Does anyone else feeling like October is going by very fast but at the same time going by very slow?!?! It is the strangest feeling, it is like mid October and yet I still feel like it is September. 26 more days to the start of phase 2! Both nervous and anxious at the same time.

After several days speaking to the nurse coordinator in regards to a new transfer day, we finally found one that worked the best. The new transfer date is now mid-December, which I was trying to avoid because of the holidays. At this point, since nothing else worked, I am letting it be. I am a planner, a perfectionist, want to be everyone’s shoulder to lean on and the one to kick some a$$ if I need to, but this process has taught me to let go of who I am and let go of those things that I want to do and to leave it in God’s hands. We can not control every aspect of our life’s and as much as I try to, it is one of the hardest battles I have with myself. I have to realize, I am NOT perfect and I can NOT control everything. God is both of those and he has a plan.

Ugh… I got the call that our transfer day is being postponed. Our doctor is going on a well deserved vacation from mid October and will return on November 4th. She stated that we do not need to have the transfer with her and we can go with one of the other doctors at the clinic. After thinking about it for about 0.5 of a second, we decided that we wanted our doctor to do our transfer. Therefore, we are looking at a possible transfer date in early November date.

I have not been very open about it, but a proposal I submitted with my mentor in speech has been accepted as a poster presentation at our national convention (American of Speech-Language-Hearing Association (ASHA)) in Boston in mid November. Presenting at ASHA is something I have always dreamed of and would try very hard not to miss. If we would be able to have the transfer on November 4th (which is unlikely), I would be on a flight to Boston on November 14th, just ten days after transfer. I am not sure how comfortable I would feel getting on a plane so soon after the transfer. In addition to this, I would have to travel with my medications as well, which the doctor will provide me with a note for TSA purposes.

Since we had to change our date anyways, we are thinking about a date that will work best for us. We are thinking of changing our transfer day until the end of November. I will keep you posted.

Head over Heels over the results of the biopsy! We are so happy the embryos’ quality range from average to above average. The abnormal embryo had only one
chromosome 11 and 15. We did ask for the sex of the embryos, and boy were we in shock!!!! We will be keeping that information to ourselves for now. We found out that our tentative transfer day would be in late October. Therefore, prep for phase 2 would begin on September 20th. There are injections for this part of the IVF process, which I was aware of. But for some reason I didn’t think it would be so many injections and for a long period of time, approximately one to four months in duration.

We couldn’t be happier for the results and are anxiously waiting for phase 2 to begin!

I received a call today from the nurse, she stated that they had received the biopsy report. It was really quick only a week after the biopsy sample was sent for analysis. She was only able to give me preliminary results via phone as we have to wait for our appointment to find out more information. Overall, 4 out of the 5 biopsied embryos had normal results and one was abnormal. I am very grateful that we decided to have a biopsy done on the embryos because this might explain the miscarriages we had.

Now knowing the report is available I am even more anxious. I have so many questions that I want to ask. At least we know for sure that we will be able to get all the results next week.