Who am I?!?!?!

For the past few months, I have been someone I do not even know. I have always been somewhat spontaneous and like to change things around. However, I have been on the extreme end of the scale recently. It started with changing just about all the light fixtures and light bulbs in the house, followed by cleaning out all the closets. Now to the most recent changes have been in the master. We are getting new bedroom furniture and painting the interior walls of the house. Although I have no idea what is going on with me, I can’t help but like the changes that I am seeing. It has been a lot of work for my husband and I, as well as our family members; however, it is going to be worth it in the end. I can’t wait to show you before and after photos of the finished master bedroom and bath. I am obsessed!!!

Phase 2 Has Begun

On Sunday was the start of phase 2! As you can imagine, I was excited, anxious, and dreading for this day to arrive… and it finally did. I have to say I was expecting worse. I was expecting it to burn and hurt, but for it was completely the opposite. Today was day 2 and the only side effect I am feeling is nausea. I am not sure if it is the combination of the birth control and Lupron together or if it is Lupron alone. We will find out soon, Sunday is the last day of me taking the birth control pills. I am sure my husband is happy about that since those things make me crazy.

Finally A Date

After several days speaking to the nurse coordinator in regards to a new transfer day, we finally found one that worked the best. The new transfer date is now mid-December, which I was trying to avoid because of the holidays. At this point, since nothing else worked, I am letting it be. I am a planner, a perfectionist, want to be everyone’s shoulder to lean on and the one to kick some a$$ if I need to, but this process has taught me to let go of who I am and let go of those things that I want to do and to leave it in God’s hands. We can not control every aspect of our life’s and as much as I try to, it is one of the hardest battles I have with myself. I have to realize, I am NOT perfect and I can NOT control everything. God is both of those and he has a plan.

OH NO!!!!

Ugh… I got the call that our transfer day is being postponed. Our doctor is going on a well deserved vacation from mid October and will return on November 4th. She stated that we do not need to have the transfer with her and we can go with one of the other doctors at the clinic. After thinking about it for about 0.5 of a second, we decided that we wanted our doctor to do our transfer. Therefore, we are looking at a possible transfer date in early November date.

I have not been very open about it, but a proposal I submitted with my mentor in speech has been accepted as a poster presentation at our national convention (American of Speech-Language-Hearing Association (ASHA)) in Boston in mid November. Presenting at ASHA is something I have always dreamed of and would try very hard not to miss. If we would be able to have the transfer on November 4th (which is unlikely), I would be on a flight to Boston on November 14th, just ten days after transfer. I am not sure how comfortable I would feel getting on a plane so soon after the transfer. In addition to this, I would have to travel with my medications as well, which the doctor will provide me with a note for TSA purposes.

Since we had to change our date anyways, we are thinking about a date that will work best for us. We are thinking of changing our transfer day until the end of November. I will keep you posted.

The Results of the Biopsy

Head over Heels over the results of the biopsy! We are so happy the embryos’ quality range from average to above average. The abnormal embryo had only one
chromosome 11 and 15. We did ask for the sex of the embryos, and boy were we in shock!!!! We will be keeping that information to ourselves for now. We found out that our tentative transfer day would be in late October. Therefore, prep for phase 2 would begin on September 20th. There are injections for this part of the IVF process, which I was aware of. But for some reason I didn’t think it would be so many injections and for a long period of time, approximately one to four months in duration.

We couldn’t be happier for the results and are anxiously waiting for phase 2 to begin!

Preliminary Biopsy Report

I received a call today from the nurse, she stated that they had received the biopsy report. It was really quick only a week after the biopsy sample was sent for analysis. She was only able to give me preliminary results via phone as we have to wait for our appointment to find out more information. Overall, 4 out of the 5 biopsied embryos had normal results and one was abnormal. I am very grateful that we decided to have a biopsy done on the embryos because this might explain the miscarriages we had.

Now knowing the report is available I am even more anxious. I have so many questions that I want to ask. At least we know for sure that we will be able to get all the results next week.

Our Infertility Journey Prior to IVF

I wanted to share with you a bit more in depth about our infertility journey prior to us deciding to proceed with IVF.

In December of 2015, we made our visit to our first infertility clinic after over 2 years of trying to conceive. During this meeting, the doctor explained how we would both have to undergo testing to determine our health. The test included your typical blood work, the glucose testing, biopsy of my uterus lining, etc. We came back in February 2016 to discuss the results. We were diagnosed with “unexplained” infertility. The doctor drafted a treatment plan starting with “timed intercourse” as our first steps. Our first round of this treatment was on July 2016. You had to come in for blood work and an ultrasound on the 2nd to 3rd day of your menstrual cycle. Once the results were analyzed, you had to begin taking Clomid for a certain amount of days and then I was to administer a trigger shot. Approximately a week later, I would head to the doctor’s office for a progesterone level test (blood test). I received a call later that Monday, which stated that I had an increased levels of progesterone and I had to return to the office in two days to assure that the levels were doubling. I was very excited to hear this news, however, I wanted to keep this to myself. Wednesday came, I went to the doctor for the blood work to find out if the levels were increasing. The call came later on that day stating that the levels had not increased and I should be expecting my menstrual cycle soon. I was heartbroken but optimistic because we had a great result with the round of “timed intercourse”.

With great hopes were tried the “timed intercourse” for an additional round. This round was unsuccessful. We met with our doctor again to discuss our next option. At this time the doctor recommended that we try Intrauterine Insemination (IUI). This procedure is similar to the “timed intercourse” but with an additional step. We both had to go to the doctor’s office a day or two after the trigger was administered to then have the nurse complete the intrauterine insemination. The first round of IUI was conducted in September of 2016 and was unsuccessful. We tried another round in October of 2016, which was also unsuccessful.

During this time, we decided to seek a second opinion. We met with the other doctor in November 2016. This doctor ran all the exams again: blood work, biopsy, etc. This doctor came to the same conclusion, undiagnosed infertility with possible mild endometriosis. He recommended to begin IVF since we have tried every other possible treatment. During this time in our personal lives, I was entering the last year of my graduate program and did not think it would be wise to begin IVF.

Fast forward to February of 2018, I had started to have food aversions and feeling nauseous. I decided to take a pregnancy test just to see. I did a total of four and all four there was a light second line. I did not know how to feel or react. My husband was away and I did not know what to do. My pregnancy tests were expired and I wasn’t sure if that could have something to do with it. I wanted to wait a bit longer to see if the second line would darken. My menstrual cycle was about a week late and I decided to check again. This time there was no second line. My menstrual cycle appeared a few days later. That is when I decided that I was not going to wait until it happened on it’s own and I was tired of waiting.

We were not completely satisfied with the second doctor we had. Therefore, we changed to the current doctor we have now. We met with this doctor due to a recommendation from a very dear person. Our appointment was in July of 2018. Our consult was at 3:00 pm and only scheduled to be 40 minutes. We did not leave her office until 5:30 pm. She did not rush during our consult, she took her time to read and explain to us all the steps and procedures we were going to encounter during the IVF process. SHE IS INCREDIBLE! We couldn’t be happier with her.

They say things happen for a reason and when they are meant to happen.

Waiting from Day 0 to Day 5/6

The waiting from retrieval day (Day 0) to Day 5/6 of the embryos was not as terrible as I thought. It could be that I kept my mind occupied with other things, like work, or if I was focused on recovering. During this time, I was preparing for a fresh transfer, which consisted of inserting a vaginal progesterone cream and pill. At the injection class, they tell you to place the pill on the progesterone cream applicator to make it easier. However, it was not as easy as they seemed. The pill would melt or get stuck on the applicator. Ugh it was so frustrating. I just kept telling myself, “you can only do your best”. Someone did give me a really good idea, unfortunately I was not able to test it. She recommended to place the pill in the freezer or the refrigerator for about 10 minutes prior to inserting it to see if the pill will not fall apart. In case you find yourself in a similar situation, you may want to try it. I was instructed to begin in the morning 2 days post retrieval with the progesterone cream only. Beginning on Friday, I was to administer the cream twice a day and the pill once in the morning. Also mentioned during the injection class was that the your body will not absorb all the medication, and it was recommended for you to wear a panty liner. Throughout this process, every day was different, there were days that I did not have discharge and others that I did. Even to this day, I continue to discharge the medication as my body is adjusting and preparing for the cleansing. FYI, the cap of the progesterone cream applicator is removable… don’t ask LOL.